So today there was a watershed moment in my existance. I left my body or at least part of my mind did and I had control over "my"* movements including going through objects. While I was able to acieve this I decided to try to contact Ray. Well I may have and possibly saw out of his eyes as I saw him dial my phone number, put the phone to his ear then my phone rang. ESP or bullshit? I can't tell you what it was but I definitely experienced something. I'll try to be as detailed and I hope, as objective as possible.
I have been reading "Cosmic Trigger 1" by Robert Anton Wilson In which the topic of drug induced illumination and ESP are widely discussed. I am fully aware that after reading about this that I could have tricked myself into thinking I left my body. I gotta tell ya, I didn't think this up. I've never done or felt this.
It started with a gravity hit. Then I put in Samuel Barber's "Agnus Dei". I always feel something inexplicable (peace?) when I listen to this particular piece of music. I called Ray, and left a message for him to call me, listened to one version of the song then skipped to the choral version got on my couch, sat cross legged and closed my eyes. I got up and walked into the music room to tidy up figuring I wasn't going to hear from Ray anytime soon. As I got to my small hallway I stopped moving just as the choir peaked and just stood there immobile for a while and saw and felt light, both in weight and feeling its presence around me. Then "I" started to move unhindered around Me, through walls, the whole deal. "I" didn't percieve anything the way I would with my 5 sences, and I remember distinctly that I could not smell anything until my experience was over. The only sounds I heard was the music in my living room and it was obvious that I was still in contact with "I". The "I" experienced things as a visual signal but nothing like normal sight. It was more warm energy than sight. I can describe the way "I" saw as translucent light, like looking at information traveling through fiber optics with out the fibers. Seeing without the use of my eyes. Everything I would normally see was there but there were flashes of images going by that seemed translucent like luminous watercolors. (damn, the rest of the post got deleted at this point so I'm re typing now, damn spacetime...) "I" assumed that these were other conversations or entities passing by as they looked like what "I" was experiencing.
I decided "I" had to try to contact Ray. "I" went up, it was that easy. Just go there. I went up through the attic, looked at my car a bit and then went over the alleyway at a height of about 25 feet or so. "I" got to Ray's went in through his celing and looked at him while just to the left side of his monitor. "I" decided to see if I could inhabit the same space as Ray and I moved over and saw through his eyes. He was playing warcraft with his character Aylcebiedes (SP?) on a green and blue level (it turns out his charachter was underwater) and "I" concentrated on getting Ray to call me. So now "I" was looking out of Ray's eyes and he got up to walk to the phone. "I" left his space briefly and returned when he picked up the phone. "I" saw him dial my phone number in great detail then he put the phone to his left ear and voila, my phone rang. "I" snapped back to my body and I simply answered the phone "Ray?" even though I knew that he was the one calling. I told him about "my" experience and everything "I" saw him do checked out.
There were lingering effects for a while after the experience. Later on Ray came over to pick up his drumset. I noticed that not only did I not need to look at the drum as I manuvered it precicely through my narrow hallway but that the drum felt lighter. After getting all the drums loaded we agreed that it was time for a smoke. I quickly thought about Kate at a sunset (I'll try to confirm if that was where she was) and then my phone rang. "This is Kate," I said". It was and I was not expecting her to call at all.
I don't know what it was that I experienced. I am skeptical, but like I said I have never done or experienced this before. It was too real an experience for me to simply discount. Answers are out of my grasp. Will they ever be within reach?
* In an attempt to describe this event I noticed that I would have to have a way to define the physical me that is consious goes to work and poops and stuff as well as the non-physical "me" that appears to be able to travel with light. For what it is worth both me and "me" were in contact the whole time even though the physical me was unable to move. They were in contact but they were also independant of each other. People have defined what I described as "me" as a soul for millennia. I make no such assumptions. I don't think I can ever again.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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2 comments:
Ray actually picked up his drums? i don't believe it.
It's willer time!
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